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tup..tap..tup..tap..Rupa-rupanya ari ni da genap 2 bulan aku kat Honolulu ni. To be exact, 9 weeks kat bumi Amerika nih. Cam tak caya je. Huhuhu..I bet nobody (even me!!) would ever imagine that someday me,Sumi Shaidin has the opportunity of the lifetime to be outside from Malaysia.

    Ermmm……it all started when I glanced at a paper that H was holding while me and a few of my classmates were all having our break in between classes at cafe. It was an ad about Fulbright’s Foreign Language Teaching Assistant. The deal looked so cool to me but I was kindda hesitated to apply. "Am I qualified enough? It’s only for the brainy, not an average person like me"…K.M and H applied for it and they encouraged me to just give it a shot. So I was like "what the heck,I should just try my luck.No harm on doing that". Others weren’t really interested since it was a non-degree program. Some thought it wasn’t really worth it. In the end us trio applied for it but unfortunately K.M. reluctantly had to withdraw hers due to some personal problems. Aku pun sedih gak!! Tak pe Kak, soon there will be something much more wonderfull coming to you after this!!!
    Well, that was not the real reason I applied for this. What triggered me to apply is when H said that "he wants to get out from this country for awhile"(something like that la). I don’t know why but it surely made me think of the same thing. Sure, why not? Aside from getting new and totally different teaching experience plus the opportunity to stay in foreign country, I also want to do the same thing as H wants to do. To tell the truth,this is like a one perfect chance to ‘ran away from my painful past’. Yeah..I know that sounds coward but that was the only thing I could do after being stomped hard twice in a row(in the same year,damn!). I need to escape from those horrible giants. Sounds melodramatic to you? Yup..Sumi can be vulnerable and stupid more than you can imagine.
    And here I am. Nak sangat lari..hah ambik ko! kena campak kat Hawaii!! Padan Muka!! That was my first thought when I received the email from MACEE. HAHAHA!!! Tapi tak pe laa….although kindda terkilan tak dapat pegi mainland I slowly starting to like this place. This university is the best place to study humanities courses especially on foreign languages. My circle is mostly from either East West Center Scholarship groupie or from Center of Southeast Asian Studies groupie. They are aware our Asian cultures and very interested with it. Asianist pun ramai kat sini. Tak rasa pun cam kat US. Tapi kalo nak tau Malaysia tak sefeymes as other Southeast countries. Paling kurang disebutkanlah senang citer compared to Indonesia, Singapore,Thailand,etc..Dunno why…
    During the two whole months here is like …..dunno how to describe it. I was dissapointed that the promotion on Malay language class was done only after I arrived. My supervisor should have done it long before I come. Not after I’m here and all students have already registered their subjects. Hey, he already that knew I’m gonna be here since Mac! No fair…then I"M the one yang kena tampal poster around the campus.No big deal actually but it was already too late!! Another thing, I don’t have enough resources to teach not even a textbook! Dah la tak penah ajar BM (tue tak kisahla sangat). Everything has to be initiate by me; syllabus,teaching material (slalu cilok dr indonesian text book plus my own knowledge) and lesson plan(ini tak kisah gak coz memang kena buat sendiri) I also couldn’t find a decent and proper Malay textbook. When i finally do (well,sort of) it was absolutely rubbish!! kena tipu bulat2! Entahla apa yang that so-called local Malay Linguist tuh pikir masa tulis buku tuh. Banyak benda yang not taken in consideration. Terlalu susah untuk foreign speaker..Sabar Sumi, bawakla banyak-banyak bersabar!!! Dugaan..banyak la lagi kisah selanjutnya tapi kalo tulis sumer nanti orang kate mengada-ngada lak. Sumer mende nak complain. Bukan complain cuma luahan hati je…hehehe!! After all, this is my blog,kan.

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